Baby Ninja: Bun In The Oven!

Sleepover!

2009-10-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

So Ayden had his first sleep over with his God Mother this wknd. It looked fun. lol, she took hella pictures and even videos. He's getting so big. I cant deal. Like, hes growing up so fast. His little personality is starting to show and its sooo much like me. lol, im in for a rude awakening when he starts talking!

Jumperoo

2009-09-06T00:24:00.001-07:00

So we bought Ayden a jumperoo and he loves it!! He's grasping the concept of jumping around. He also loves falling asleep in it!!! Heres the footage:

Chunky!

2009-08-15T21:05:00.001-07:00

updated stats, he's now 16 lbs 10 oz!! 25.5 inches long! hes huge!! lol. chunky.

And we also ventured into the world of baby cereal...he wasnt too thrilled about it! You know i made a video.

needless to say...im sure he will get used to it soon. Hes gonna have to. He eats so much, i can hardly keep enough formula! lol. Those little cereal boxes and baby purees are soooooo much cheaper!

New Pic!

2009-08-07T18:30:00.001-07:00

My sweet pea has gotten so big. He will be 4 months old on sunday. WOW...time sure is flying! I cant wait until i go to homecoming this year because he will be like 6 months almost 7. So he can come hang out on the yard in his costume!! YAY!! After we go to the Dr on the 11th of this month i'll post his newest stats! Hes HUGE YALL!!

Mommy Update.

2009-07-14T20:59:00.001-07:00

So..I know I havent been up on my posting job but, motherhood is a SUPER FULL TIME JOB!! lol..updates, Ayden is now 3 months old and weighs at LEAST 14lbs. He's about 25'' and hes growing every day. He's starting to smile at us, recognize our faces, get happy when we come around. All the fun stuff!!

He took his first airplane ride the other day. We went to Dallas to visit my dad and he did great on the plane. but the heat was NOT his favorite! However he went swimming for the first time which ALSO wasnt his fav! lol...he just didnt like anything that wknd.

but i've lost all my baby weight ( FRICK) and im not too happy about it oh well.

Hes become so a cutie pie and i cant wait to see what kind of kid he blossoms into!

2009-05-26T01:02:00.000-07:00

6.5 wks...

My sweet pea is almost 7 weeks old. WOW.

He's getting bigger everyday. He's smiling at me. He looks for me when I call him. I NEVER WOULDVE thought i'd turn into a mom and damnit, i'm a mom. I LOVE IT! I love going to work and coming home to him. I miss him when I'm gone. I miss him when i'm around. I'm so in love yall. Who knew last year this time that a year later, I'd have a mini me. Well...not ME per say but u get it.

Hes already quite the character. He makes the FUNNIEST FACES!!

Love Love Love

2009-05-06T11:55:00.001-07:00

If I've never loved anything before, I love this little person!!! I know I'm spoiling him but I like to let him sleep on me. All the time! LOL I love looking at him..smelling him...touching him...everything! Crazy.

-- Post From My iPhone

2009-04-26T20:37:00.001-07:00

Scary monster face!! My baby is a clown already!!

And when he's not looking at me like that, he's like this

And when he's not like that, he's like this

Or this

LOL!! Silly billy!

Public Service Announcement.

2009-04-19T18:15:00.000-07:00

Just so everybody is FULLY aware, I tried breast feeding and it's TOTALLY not for me. I'm scared to go to sleep because i can only lay down for 2 hrs before they are all swollen and stupid! I love having the SIZE but the pain isnt a good enough trade off. So guess what...I PASS! Ayden has a dr. appt tomorrow and I will be asking her what formula is closest to breastmilk and i'll be switching over TOMORROW. I cant deal...I'm sure he'll understand. lol ..if not..he cant beat me!

Postpartum.

2009-04-17T20:06:00.001-07:00

Its been a week since I've had Ayden and I must say, I slightly miss him being inside. SLIGHTLY. lol

I'm not sure if its the post baby blues but my mind has been all over the place. Either i'm thinking about how much its gonna hurt when I wake up because of my HUGE boobs swelling up, or wether its how much I wanna take him outside but i'm scared of germs (lol) or about us moving to California. I'm just so unsure about everything now because I just dont know. Like honestly.

Im so tired every day but I just dont even worry about it because when he wimpers, I jump. I can hardly sleep well unless he's w/my mom. Cuz I know she's attentive and doing what she knows to do to soothe him and calm him down.

I dont know man. I just have alot on my mind and when the baby came, everything seemed to change for me. EVERYTHING.

Motherhood so far..

2009-04-14T18:34:00.001-07:00

isnt what I thought it would be. lol...It's hard yes, its very tiring yes, but its all worth it. To see his little round face, wrinkly skin and to hear his little whimpers makes me feel like a completely new person. Who ever thought that I would be a mom. lol..most people could never see it. And now that I am, I ♥ it. I really do.

I dont wanna let anybody do anything, I wanna do it all but I'm the one who ends up exhausted and all crabby patty the next morning, because not ONLY is he a baby ninja, he seems to be part hoot owl. MEANING he sleeps all day and is wide eyed all night. THANKS. I blame my work schedule. Because I did keep those kinds of hours. Oh well...c'est la vie! Isnt that how its spelled??

Well we've been to the Dr. already, Dr. Walker. She's great! I have some pics:

first day in the real world, etc...it went well. I can see that the car is his friend.

All I do is take pictures of him, why, because he's cute and hes mine!! heres my most recent fav...

CLASSIC CANDRA EXPRESSION!!!

DUH DUH DUH DUH!!!!

2009-04-11T21:09:00.000-07:00

woke up @ 11am - felt funny

counted contractions until like 1pm, took a bath, got out, got dresses, headed to my dr appt. Got there, he checked me and was like, ur only 1cm..go home. I told him NO. lol..so me and my mom rode around for an hour and seriously they were coming like every 2 or 3 min...so we rode back to the dr ( which is right across from the the hospital) and I sat in the parking lot for 20 min..I saw the dr come out and I told him, I'm going to the hospital...he said COOL. lmao..

i get here, cant find a park..OMG! Rode in the deck for like 10 min..then i say, EFF IT..we parked direclty in front of the door and put on the hazards. Got wheeled upstairs to triage, the left me in there for like 6 months, then when I got checked, I was 4cm. I stayed there for like 15 more min then went to my l&d room. HELLA BIG by the way!!

After about 15 more minutes or 20, i dont really recall, lol...the epidural was wheeled in, NOT BEFORE my boss, brother, cousin, best friend, brothers roomate and friend came in to watch me contract my LIFE away. I got checked before my epidural and I was 7 1/2..WOW.

I got the epidural and still felt hella contractions, so after an hour of feeling them, I ended up having to get another dose. After 10 min, which is approx 7:25pm by now, I was fully dialated and ready to push. I started pushing at like 7:45 or so..he was out and crying at 8:11pm.
A total of 9hrs in labor! I was really surprised AND i didnt tear and or shat on the table! YES!!!!
He latched on right away! He's cute! I love him!

and yes i'm so glad I got those maternity pics taken yesterday..I would've been pissed and if ya'll EVER need a bomb photographer, a fellow banana member cghetes took my pics and did a WONDERFUL job!!

Oh, heres the baby..lol:

www.photobucket.com/aydenhenderson

OKAY, NEW POLL!

2009-04-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

Since I'm doing absolutely nothing, I've gone through all the baby clothes and decided on two diff coming home outfits.

Choice #1

Choice #2

I'm really torn. lol..not really BUT..both outfits are EXTRAAAAAAAAAAA cute! the 2nd one is more cutesey baby and the first is more big boy outfit, complete with his first pair of sneakers! hehe ( bought by G.D. Tank). They both have jackets, socks, scratch mittens and little hats. What do you think?

Travel System

2009-04-07T17:22:00.000-07:00

I dont get why everything has to be "self" put together. ARGH..and the pictures in the little manual werent worth a CRAP!! All it says was like " put this here" "snap that in there"..WHAT?! Either way..I got it in..and it looks cute!!

(Dont mind that weird expression on my face..lol)

THERE YOU HAVE IT! The 3rd thing i've put together for the baby. These little things are pretty complicated. I dont really have anything else to do, except wait. He's clealy due on Sunday and there is absolutely NOTHING happening.

Over and Under

2009-04-06T01:20:00.001-07:00

Here's some pics of me within the past few days! I'm so bored being preggo!!

these 2 are from tonight at work. I clearly don't do much, hence why I still work!

This was from like last Friday on my at to work. Ugh...come on baby!!

-- Post From My iPhone

I guess man.

2009-04-02T22:02:00.000-07:00

Why is that picture so large u ask!? Because at my weekly appt I was totally blown. Here's the rundown:

*im not dialated, ANY

*I'm not thinning out, ANY

*The baby weighs 6lbs 12oz ( give or take a few oz)

*They wont/cant induce me because my cervix is "un-induceable"

*The baby is measuring a WEEK smaller than they initially said THEREFORE letting me know that they should've listened to me when I told them 28 weeks ago that I wasnt as far as they think I am.

*and my blood pressure is high.

Ayden...what r u doing in there?! Other than a bunch of nothing. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

The waiting game..

2009-03-31T01:01:00.000-07:00

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...14 days left. And I mean really..why havent I gone into early labor!? I'm a full 38 weeks...Ayden is TOTALLY capable of living outside my body. But no..he's just CHILLIN. Im gaining weight day by day, I'm up to 144lbs. Come on man!!

My BF isnt coming out here until April 9th and more than likely i'll STILL be preggo. Atleast he will be here for my bday on the 10th. I'll be a whopping 28years old! JEEEEZZZZZ. Bday and baby all within days of each other. Its crazy.

I still have 6 days of work left and they are driving me CRAZY!!! I'm having a breakdown. I'm soooooo physically and emotionally tired right now. I cant wait till the 7th comes...FMLA TIME!!! lol..lazy days. Unless the baby comes lol...

OH..and I got my travel system ( thanks Godmommy Nia) and instead of the Graco, I ended up getting the Chicco Cortina Keyfit. The Graco was kind of dingy looking once I saw it in person but the Chicco was pretty, modern and had great colors AND was like pounds lighter!! This isnt the actual one because its still in the box..i'll be trotting over to the fire dept so they can install it properly. Pics soon!

Until then..we play the waiting game. BLAH.

Bored senseless

2009-03-21T00:07:00.000-07:00

I'm Bored out of my mind!! Why can't the baby be here so I atleast have a legitimate reason to NOT be sleep! I could atleast be looking at him, changing a diaper, feeding something!! LOL all and I do mean allll of my friends are out doing something, me? I'm at home watching the movie Penelope and counting baby kicks! Tons of fun!

I got a new car the day before yesterday and I'm totally excited about that!! Not my dream car but it's great either way! I finally got my Honda! My volkswagen a.k.a BB was too small for my growing family. I could hardly fit my large Michael Kors shopping bags back there!

That's a lackluster picture of the dash board! And a couple shots from today! I still love BB but my car heart belongs to Hondie!!

Oh and here's a pic of me tonight at Brio with my best friend Ericka! I'm getting bigggggg

Woah big mama!!!! LOL

-- Post From My iPhone

36.5wk Check Up

2009-03-19T11:48:00.001-07:00

At my dr.'s appt today, I was HOPING that he would say, HEY, you're dialated 2 cm...blah blah...induce early..blah blah. NO SUCH LUCK.

She said the baby has started to descend but he's still high up. My cervix is starting to soften but not thin out. ARGHHHH...lol. I had a group B strep test and lemme just tell ya...talk about uncomfortable! A cotton swab stuck up my butt, DISGUSTING! lol...and she did a vaginal exam. Apparently she decided to use the LARGEST speculum EVER invented! Chile..i literally let out a noise! She was like " oh, im sorry...let me get a smaller speculum!" YEAH!! YOU DO THAT LADY!!! I've been closed up for the past 8 months. Aint too much going on in there!! lol

Anyway..I've gained ONE whole pound, leaving me at 141lbs. blood pressure 114/70. Tummy measuring 36 to 37. Whatever that means.

lol..such a boring, regular, uneventful pregnancy. But I guess thats always good.

TUMMY TIME!

2009-03-14T19:23:00.000-07:00

Since I hadnt done any belly shots in like 2 months, I figured I should show how round i am now. I literally look like I have a basketball in my stomach! lol..i also had a mini photoshoot of myself...I thought I was cute today! hehe..in the words of my boyfriend " ur pretty everyday billy!" HEY THANKS!!! lol

and there you have it! lol..I really think he has no room left !

Handy-Preggo!

2009-03-14T18:49:00.000-07:00

Again, I bought something that required assembly. The Fisher Price Infant Papasan Seat! Ive been in love with this little lounger since the day I found out I was pregnant! So, thanks to the ever efficient Burlington Coat Factory, i got it for $44.99 instead of 69.99. DEAL!!! hehe..heres the pictures, clearly they uploaded in reverse order but YOU get the idea:

Next project: GRACO TRAVEL SYSTEM!!! I should have it by wednesday and there will definitley be pics of me putting it together! AND pictures of me at the firestation getting it "professionally" put in my the firemen so its "done properly." lol..I would hate to have it installed wrong and then when i'm heading home and hit a sharp turn..THUD...baby on the floor! LMAO!!

Help!!

2009-03-12T13:29:00.000-07:00

Help me choose which outfit to bring him home in!!!! They're all small but being the fashion forward mommy that I am, he can't just wear a onesie!! There are two sweatsuits and one alligator feet sleeper! Which is cutest??

-- Post From My iPhone

Milestone!

2009-03-12T12:55:00.000-07:00

So I'm doing my first load of laundry and I'm excited!! Washing all the newborn sized stuff! I'd forgotten how much stuff i'd bought! But so many cute things! And the baby Dreft detergent smells like babies! LOL I thought it was unscented!! Oh well....

NEST, NEST. NEST!

2009-03-11T22:21:00.001-07:00

Im guessing my nesting has started to kick in. Because my dad bought me a lovely bassinet and when it got here, I didnt like it, it was scratched up and missing parts. BLAH. So what do I do? Go directly to Babies R Us and purchased another one that I loved! Me and my homegirl Orlanda spent a whopping 20 minutes putting this thing together! Heres the photos.

There were a few more pics but I'm actually TOO LAZY to put it up..but you get the idea!! Now my room looks really baby-ish, I even set up my diaper genie! ( thanks Tinah ♥)

and here is my huge mound of diapers, etc from the shower! Whenever my photographer gets the pics from the shower to me, I'll post them!

On another note, the BH contractions are coming more and more, which leads me to believe that Ayden will be here before his expected due date! YAY!!!! Come on down!!!

Countdown..

2009-03-06T01:21:00.000-08:00

I had my 34w5d check up today...i'm cool...140LBS, jeeezus!! lol And I had an ultrasound to measure amniotic fluid, etc...the baby weighs 5lbs5oz already. Let's hope he doesnt gain TOO much more weight. Lol..otherwise the cute outfit I picked out for him to wear home he wont be able to fit it! But, yeah..we did the non-stress test today too and hes not stressed, lol. ]

Not too much else to say about it. My baby shower is saturday! FINALLY!! =) I've gotten a couple gifts in the mail already. A humidifier, a bassinet and a buncha diapers and wipes. Cool basic things that I needed and wanted. All I'm waiting to see is if I get the travel system I want and crib. If not..time to take a trip to Babies R Us! hehe..any excuse to shop I'm down for.

My BF finally comes back tomorrow, well today @ 630pm and I'm soooooooo excited! YAY!

UGH!!

2009-03-03T10:52:00.000-08:00

6 weeks left. I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm over it.

I know these last few weeks are going to drag on and on but JEEEZZZZZZZ maybe by some miracle i'll deliver early, like in 3 or 4 weeks. I'll be 37 weeks then...thats a safe delivery range. Hell, RIGHT NOW is a safe delivery range.

Not only is the fatigue KILLING me, I'm finally starting to get scared. Like REAL scared. I'm about to be somebody's MOM. lol, are you serious????? I was just in the clubs, drinking, hanging out late, not really having a care in the world and now in 6 weeks, I will have a son.

SURREAL.

I try to talk to my BF but he's not quite there yet. I mean, he's THERE but not where I am. He hasnt really had to deal with the whole situation as much as I have because he lives so far away and he's still living his life the way he wants to. Nothing wrong with that because I cant expect him to just stop partying, taking trips, etc just because I cant. A small part of me wished he did but I mean really, lol, the likelyhood of that happening is SLIM to NONE.

Next month this time, i'll either be a real mom or in labor. Weird. I'm not ready. I'm scared out of my mind. I'm scared thinking about the move to Cali once the baby gets here. I dont have any friends there, I dont have a life there. But I know if I stay here what the outcome will be. I dont know..I know it's all emotions right now but I cant help but feel some type of way about everything right now.

Atleast I'm still "small" 24lbs...not that bad! lol

oh and P.S. I've decided to blog via my iPhone while i'm in labor/going to the hospital, etc...why not?!?! More memories!!

Hey, I'm creative!! lol

2009-02-24T11:31:00.001-08:00

2009-02-24T00:51:00.000-08:00

Dear Ayden,

I have only 7 weeks left until we meet face to face and I'm finally starting to get nervous. Am I gonna be a good enough mother for you? Will I be able to provide you the lifestyle that you need and deserve? Even though I dont know the answer to those questions, I do know that i'm so excited to see you and even more excited to get to know the little person moving around in my stomach.

I'm sure on certain occasions I'll be sad that you arent safe and secure inside my womb but I'll have the real thing on the outside. I finally have someone that I can cuddle until I dont feel like cuddling anymore. Your daddy lets me play kissy face with him but only so much, you, lol...will have NO choice! lol

I promise to try to be the best mother I can for you. To provide you with everything you need, want and deserve so that you can grow up to be a wonderful young man. You will never understand the feeling I had when i saw your little chunky face on the 4D ultrasound...I fell in love. Not the same love that I feel for your dad but a completely different type of love that I never knew I could feel. It's unreal.

I cant wait to see you!!

Love,

Mommy

Movie Star!!

2009-02-12T10:35:00.000-08:00

I made this video like last week. I thought it was a monster in there! Hilarious, I know he's ready to get outta there!!

Gross, but not really

2009-02-11T21:09:00.000-08:00

I was just taking a shower when I got to thinking about everybody and their leaky boobs. And I started to feel left out because mine arent. So...just on a whim I decide to squeeze and WHAM out comes some clear drops of whateverr! YAY! Then I did the other one..WHAM!! wow...i really am pregnant! I have boob milk/colostrum...whatever its called!! Now I dont feel so left out.

Adventures in Babysitting

2009-02-10T23:12:00.000-08:00

I haven't babysat in like 5 years..and today I decided to take a test drive on the baby wagon. My cousin has the CUTEST little girl named Patience. I picked her up and she was so ready to go and all day and night she's been the BEST baby ever!! She's like 5 or 6 months old and the most well behaved baby in history. I mean, she never cried, fussed, nothing. She plays, eats, pee's and sleeps. Cant beat that. Shes asleep right now but I cant help but watch her and think what my little ayden is gonna be like when he gets here. Is he gonna be mild mannered like her? Or wild and noisy. I think he secretly might be jealous or know that there is some sort of baby around because he's been moving around nonstop since I picked her up. Poor billy...she wont replace you but she is wonderful!!!

Status Quo.

2009-02-06T16:54:00.000-08:00

I went to the Dr. yesterday to get the results of the 3hr G.D. test, and I passed! THANK GAWD!!! I dont know how I would've dealt with an adjusted diet!! I ♥ eating and drinking my coveted Tahitian Treat once a day! I dont wanna give that up. lol..but if It would be messing w/the baby, then I would. Since the last appt. i've gained 4 lbs so I'm sitting at 135lbs right now..well I had on boots, so maybe i'm like 132lbs. Whatever! lol blood pressure 116/67 or something like that.

I'm finally starting the countdown for when my BF comes to visit on the 19th. I'm ENTIRELY too excited! I havent seen him in 2 months. We are getting a 3D ultrasound done while hes here and just hanging out. Like the old days! lol..i miss him so much some days. Long distance relationships are the devil! ugh...

So much for my updates...I've been on a shopping spree the past 4 days and NOT for baby stuff! I believe that Michael Kors is my new best friend. lol.

umm, okay.

2009-02-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

Let me be the one to say, my boss is a jerk. There have been two separate incidents within the last 2 weeks that further proves my point.

Incident 1:

Me: Hey, is it okay if I start taking tuesdays off too? I'm starting to be a little more tired than normal and my dr says I need to get more rest.

Him: You are so lazy. Why dont you get on a treadmill or something.

Me: I work 6 days a week, I mean, do I really have to work 6 days/week and i'm 7 months pregnant??

Him: I've been around pregnant ppl before, you're just lazy.

Incident 2: ( via text)

Me: Hey my boyfriend is coming into town on the 20-21 and I was wondering if I could have those days off so I can spend time with him. I haven't seen him in 3 months.

Him: Sure, hanging with ur boyfriend is always better than making money.

Me: ew, why do you have to be such a jerk w/the response.

Him: Truth hurts. Sorry.

WHAT A BASTARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like, If i didn't make such good money working here, i'd tell him to shove it but i'm sure he wouldnt even care. He doesnt seem to care about anybody but himself. And it pisses me off because its like, I work 6 days per week and keep VERY late hours. And its like dude, can I get just a LITTLE slack, I am 7 months pregnant.

Sciatic Nerve..

2009-02-01T03:55:00.000-08:00

Whatever that is, it can go directly to HELL and not pass go. I'm guessing my little billy is laying on mine because, I'm walking around like the flipping hunchback of notre dame!! lol, I just got off work and I couldnt go to sleep if somebody PAID me to. And to top it off, i have some sort of syncronized swimmer having a field day in my uterus, AFTER he decided not to do anything all day long. Thanks alot billy!

29/30 Wks.

2009-01-27T17:11:00.000-08:00

I've officially hit the point where I am in the actual home stretch. I cant believe it. In less than 11 weeks I'll be a mom. WOW. Not 11 weeks i'll be going to miami for spring break or something, lol..i'll be bringing a LIFE into this world. Someone will be depending on me for the rest of my life. It's really hard to grasp right now but I'm sure i'll get it. Like everybody says, my motherly instincts will kick in. On another note, heres a pic of me today, I would say I look rather bright and glowy!

And I did partake in my bi-weekly beauty session today ( brows, nails and toes) and as I usually do, I bought the baby somethings..lol...mostly onesies, and a pair of jeans! hehe...When I got home I got the best surprise though, it was an evelope addressed to who else, Ayden lol....then I open it up and see this:
and I open it up and see these:

personalized pacifiers!!! Courtesy of his daddy =) I ♥ him

3hr Test.

2009-01-27T16:54:00.000-08:00

So, yesterday I had my 3hr glucose test! OMG!!!!! First of all, I was up on the phone w/my BF until like 6am...lol...dont ask. THEN I had to wake up at 7am to get dressed and go to LabCorp. I was the first one there so I got started on time....

dont be fooled. that orange drink is NOT soda. its the nastiest substance known to man. Long story short, I had to drink that within 5 minutes. I started at 8:15 and it was all good. Then maybe around 8:45am my legs started to tingle and I felt like I was high ( lol) and I was like, who thought that not eating before drinking a PURE sugar drink was a good idea?! So, after many hot flashes and the baby turning flips like i've never seen before it was 9:15, 2ND tube of blood. Then I got smart, there was a bench in the waiting area. Me being preggo I have a built in excuse, I laid down. lol...The nurse walked past me like 4 times before she asked if I wanted to lay down. DUH!!!!!! So I end up in the staff breakroom in a recliner. I pushed my feet up, pushed back and was OUT!! 10:15, 3rd tube of blood. SLEEP AGAIN!! 11:15 4th tube of blood and time to go. THANK GOD.

That was me after 3 hours of waiting and NO food since like 8pm the night before. So glad that's over, now I have to wait until Feb. 5th to get my results. I hope I passed because I really dont feel like modifying my diet. I hardly eat anything to begin with! Should I have gestational diabetes, I dont want my baby to be HUGE lol..like, me, having a 10lb baby! ARE YOU SERIOUS!? All those cute ass onesies I bought, lol...$$ down the tube! I joke I joke...but seriously.

OMG!!

2009-01-25T04:10:00.000-08:00

I dont know what's going on. ALL DAY today I've actually felt like a pregnant person. Like, i've been waddling all day, my back has been KILLING me, he's moving around in ways i've never seen, like he's trying to make room....and lets not talk about how he feels like he weighs 192lbs. I dont get it..It's like theres no comfort for me today and that blows.

I guess this is what i've been waiting for since I've had no symptoms but dang,..why you gotta do me like this Ayden?? I mean, my stomach LITERALLY looks like, I cant even explain, it's so weird its scary looking. lol..I really have a baby in my stomach. Lol..7 months down the road, I still havent QUITE grasped the concept but I'm guessing the almost $1000 I've spent on baby stuff ( not including cribs, strollers, etc..) proves that SOMETHING is going on.

Jeez, let's hope I can get some sleep because it's 7:18am, I just got off work at like 6 and I cant see any hopes of going to sleep.

I am the weakest link!

2009-01-22T07:41:00.000-08:00

I TOTALLY failed my 1hr Gestational Diabetes test. I needed at 140 to pass and I had 146, BLAH!

I'm guessing it was the super sized hi-c I'd drank earlier that day AND OR the yogurt i'd had at like 1145 when I was told to stop eating at 12. So thanks to me not knowing what to eat and what i could eat, I have to go back monday and take the 3HOUR TEST!!! 3 hours at Labcorp!? Wack.

Other than that, everything else looked good, I've gained 6 lbs since the last appt ( in which I hadnt gained ANY weight since my october appt) so now I'm at a WHOPPING 131 lbs. lol..which brings my total to 18lbs. I'm guessing thats good. =/

Again when I was getting the baby's heart beat checked, he ran away. Lol..Im guessing he REALLY doesnt like that thing.

As I sit here now and eat my breakfast sandwhich and hi-c fruit punch, I'll make a mental note on sunday to NOT drink anything but water and eat very little! I refuse to let them tell me I have gestational diabetes! I love eating whatever I want. We shall see...

28wks

2009-01-21T17:17:00.000-08:00

Here's the latest pics of me. I still try to be the slightest bit fashionable while sperminated. As you can see I dont like doing my hair, I just tend to wear hats. They work for me so it's okay! And if you hadnt noticed, all my pics have been taken in the bathroom, lol...its the best place for my photoshoots I suppose.

I cant deal!

2009-01-21T17:07:00.000-08:00

Watch This

After watching this, I feel like this:

That's something I will TOTALLY pass on. I wish I would come into the room and see my BF w/his "man breast" stuck in Ayden's mouth, I just might pass out from the high levels of disgusting-ness. Breastfeeding was always kept a woman's "job" because lets face it, IT IS. Why do certain men think that "oh I need to bond with the baby too." Well try taking your baby out on a daddy/son/daughter day, play some games, SOMETHING.

That's too much for me. lol..

I think it's a first.

2009-01-19T19:09:00.000-08:00

So, I'm at work right now and I think i'm experiencing my first set of baby hiccups. I think. Or maybe i'm just now realizing what they are lol..either way its very weird.

This whole thing, pregnancy is REALLY weird to me. I cant believe theres really a little person inside. lol.. A PERSON!! A BABY!! Are you serious?!? But he's moving alot more lately so its making it all the more real. And I just hit that 3rd trimester mark so it's all coming to a close soon. I wonder if I'll miss him floating around in my stomach? I tell ya what I wont miss, sleeping on my side!!! lol...SIDE SLEEPING BE GONE!

I need to make another video of him moving because its like lately, theres no resting for him ONLY when people want to see it or touch. But when we're alone, he's like jumpin' jack flash! I wonder if that means he's gonna be all over the place!? jeez...lol

And wednesday i'm getting my 1hr glucose test. Im not even really sure what that is but I know I cant eat or drink anything but water after 12am on wednesday night. UGH..lets hope I pass so that I dont have to take the 3hr test later on. My dr appt's are gonna start happening every 2 weeks now, greattttttt..lol and my 3d/4d ultrasound i'm gonna schedule soon too. So I can finally see his fat little face!! lol

13 wks to go!

2009-01-14T02:13:00.001-08:00

When you say 13 weeks it sounds shorter than 3 months and 1 week. Because THAT seems like it'll NEVER come! Although I am scared to become a mom, I'm just ready to be able to sleep on my STOMACH!! lol...I never knew how much much I loved to do that until now when I cant. Yes I do the same pose in every picture...seems as though that is my best angle right now.

One of the girls at work gave me a "baby care" basket:

It has Dreft detergent and Laundry spray, Lysol wipes, a travel set of mini johnson & johnson's stuff, some little booties, a potato sack night sleeper and a blanket! It was really nice of her!

I'm starting to get impatient...lol...i'm ready to have this baby because I wanna see what he's gonna look like. My BF insists that his genes are stronger than mine MEANING the baby will look like him mostly. I mean, can I get something!? He's already basically gonna have his name lol, can I get just a LITTLE resemblence!??! Probably not. I'm getting the 3D/4D ultrasound in about 2 weeks, so we will see then..lol...

Oh and this is ONE of the last few SETS of clothes I bought for him...lol..his wardrobe has too much going on right now.

I ♥ Carters!

Huggies Express

2009-01-06T18:14:00.001-08:00

Today I bought my first "pack/set" of diapers, wipes, pacifiers, and misc other Huggies items. I was in walmart trying to decide what type of diapers to use. I liked the way Pampers swaddlers looked ( in the package and they are super publicized) but the thing that sold me on Huggies was the little "dip" it had at the top for his little umbilical cord thingy. =) And there is more room in the front for his little pee-pee after the circumcision. =(

I opened the 1 pack of newborn diapers I bought and they were SOOOOOOOOOOOOO little. Me and my mom were both like "awwwwwww." I get so excited over buying baby stuff its crazy. Its so much more fun to buy stuff for your baby than someone elses.

Either way, I'm gonna go get a Sam's/Costco somewhere card so I can get more diapers. HOWEVER after more research, I noticed that the same pack of 584 fragrance free Huggies Natural Care wipes that I got from walmart for 13.00 was 15 @ Costco. Not a deal...I'll stick w/walmart...I got lots of stuff for only $58.62. I dont know if that's cheap or not but, all the clothes I've bought have been on sale so I havent spent full retail on any of the many outfits, I might as well spend money so he doesnt have little rashes and leaks on his butt!

MIddle Name Cont'd..

2009-01-04T14:02:00.001-08:00

For those who've actually paid attention, there is a poll along the right side of my blog. That is a poll tallying votes for my baby's middle name. Now, we have decided that whatever name wins is what we are going give the baby.

And from the looks of things "Akil" is in the lead. I smell fishy business going on!! Because I voted once and NOT for that one. lol..we shall see.

Anyway, I'm starting to get more and more hands on my belly and its starting to work my nerves more and more. I suppose its okay for random people to touch your stomach. I wasnt aware of that. Regardless, I need to get a shirt that says "Dont Touch Me."

Anybody know where to get one??

Moving Right Along

2008-12-31T02:41:00.000-08:00

Well, I've finally hit that 25 week mark. 15 weeks left and counting.

And these days WONT come fast enough. He's been moving around alot more recently and I guess I've figured out his sleep/activity pattern. Like his parents, he's a night owl. lol...his most active times are like after 3am and until like 12pm...after that, he's relatively still. I've still been hella sleepy but that's to be expected I guess. No other symptoms. YAY me! lol Here's some updated pics from this week:

Project.

2008-12-24T23:15:00.000-08:00

Since I learned to crochet back in 8th grade, I've been trying to find a real reason to actually start and finish a quilt. I guess me having a baby is as good a time as any. After 2 days of starting, unraveling, starting, unraveling, I finally got it started the RIGHT way and its coming along GREAT! ( if i must toot my own horn) Now the problem I have is the flippin yarn I chose ( merino wool) tends not to want to un-ravel the way I want/need! And THAT pisses me off, Hence the reason my quilt is only this big:

I still have 3.5 months to finish...I"m sure I will, if not, he'll understand! lol

UPDATE!!

2008-12-24T20:15:00.000-08:00

So, I had my 24 wk checkup today and my 2nd ultrasound! It was funny. When the nurse was trying to use the doppler to hear his heartbeat, he kept moving around. lol..then after waiting for 45 minutes I got into the ultrasound room. I tried to take my camera and make a video for my BF but, no haps on that! BOOOO! Ultrasound showed that he was growing cool, he weighed 1.5lbs and had a little chubby face already. We saw him yawning and for the 2ND time, he flipped us the bird! lol..thanks little buddy. 'preciate that =)
They did my fundal height and said i was like 26. Whatever that means and after doing research online, that means i'm measuring 2 wks ahead THEREFORE stating I might be having a big baby. lol..greattttt. So, since I havent scanned any pics yet, i took some pics w/my cell to send to my BF here they are:

His Feet

His face from the top
Him flicking us off.
his new big boy profile

How fun!!! Now I cant wait until the end of January when I get my 3D ultrasound and BF will be here to FINALLY see one live in action! And on the 22nd I have my dreaded glucose test! No food after 12am the night before..great. How am I supposed to deal with that?! Oh well.

Retraction

2008-12-21T03:37:00.000-08:00

So...I think I should probably issue a statement of apology. I have painted my BF to be something he TOTALLY is not. I've made him out to be a selfish, immature, jerk off and in all honesty he's NONE of that. Although he doesnt think sometimes lol, he's still the greatest boyfriend i've ever had. Real talk.

I know that's weird to say, but I've had ALOT of boyfriends and by far, he's the bestest. Im sure that if he was here in NC w/me, he would clearly have an active role in this pregnancy because he is genuinely interested, excited and happy about our baby. So..if I tend to veer off the beaten path sometime, let's blame it on the hormones..no hard feelings. I ♥ you.

ON ANOTHER NOTE...

I finally took out my belly ring for the first time in 6 years. It was a sad moment but I dont want a hideous scar. I tried to put in the "pregnancy jewelery" but it just didnt do anything for me. So...I figure i'll be 28 when the baby comes...I just might not need it anymore. Especially if the dreaded stretch marks appear on my stomach...YIKES!!!

P.S. I'm at 24 wks officially on monday. Here's my update..lol, excuse the bra showing, it IS 6:48am lol

Here we go again.

2008-12-19T13:33:00.000-08:00

Today is one of those days.

I think i'm catching a cold! And that really blows because I can't really take too much of anything! My job is having an xmas party on sunday AND I wont be able to drink ANYTHING! AARGH...lol..I refuse to partake in the one/two glass per month allocation. I'm not sure why, I've read so many things about drinking but I just dont wanna risk it I guess. But drinking aside, the green monster of jealousy cant seem to get out of my head. They always say that your boyfriend/dude always is the person who gets the bad end of the stick. But, it seems like mine doesnt care that he's getting it (or if he does, i sure dont know it). I try to be as nice as I can ( very hard for me, lol) and not be naggy about stuff that bothers me and it just blows me up inside. It's like I wonder if I should NOT deal w/him till after I have the baby. Would that help me not go insane? I dont know dude. I"m just so tired of always wondering, "what if?" And I cant keep doing that because I am literally going insane over here. This long distance thing is really taking its toll on me right now.

These days..

2008-12-17T00:32:00.000-08:00

Yes. I admit it. I'm a hater. And I dont care.

Being preggo brings out the WORST thoughts in my head. I'm so over it. Im one minute away from saying eff it all and disconnecting myself from any and every situation I DONT feel is beneficial to me.

I'm kinda tired of being 2nd place or just in the "fake" 1st place spot. I'm sick of everything. And w/the exception of a few, EVERYBODY. I'm gonna hope and pray its just the hormones because if not...I have a LONG road ahead of me.

And facebook is pissin me off too. lol..I just might get offa there AGAIN, for good this time. Like I was told by someone "facebook isnt real...you always take everything out of context....blah blah" YEAH WELL FU*K THAT!! lol..I aint the one. And I'm tired of it. BUT...as always....i'm the one who's trippin and needs to "calm down."

I guess dude.

Collage!

2008-12-16T20:49:00.000-08:00

I was bored and decided to make a baby glitter thingy collage! hehe...

Baby Fest '09

2008-12-14T23:02:00.000-08:00

Apparently it must be something in the water. I've had SEVERAL friends tell me that theyre are preggo now. Like either 2 weeks ahead of me or behind AND even one of them is due on the same date! Its sooo weird. lol..its like, if you graduated from high school in '99, you should be pregnant right now! lol..

P.P.P.

2008-12-12T21:04:00.000-08:00

My BF is going to a wine party and i'm so jealous. NOT ONLY am I jealous because he can drink but I'm jealous because he has all these friends that invite him to places, etc...and he calls me and tells me how drunk he is and how much fun he had. Thanks. I appreciate that. As I lay in my bed, fat, alone and bored SENSELESS, he's out having the time of his life in Newport Beach. But i'm the one that's "being mean." I'm sure he's gonna be too far gone to drive home LEAVING him to stay in Newport overnight w/people I dont know. Yeah I'm jealous and posessive. But...it's warranted.

I dont get invited anywhere anymore. Because me and my friends laugh at preggo's in the party. So I'm guessing that's why I dont get the invite...I dont know. The Preggo Party Pooper.

Boredom.

2008-12-12T14:38:00.000-08:00

I felt like I needed a change. Since my body is changing, my hair should too. So instead of cutting my hair ( which I've been forbidden to do) I bought a wig. And I think I'm gonna keep buying them BECAUSE they are cute to me!! lol Aint nothin like looking different. What do ya'll think?

yay or nay? lol

Caught on film!!

2008-12-11T00:05:00.001-08:00

I finally got video of him moving around alot! Just to prove I'm not crazy. You can really see it from the outside!!

Some Days.

2008-12-10T18:48:00.000-08:00

Some days I feel so alone. And it seems like my BF never really understands where I'm coming from. I'm sure its the hormones but I just feel like i'm doing this whole thing by myself. I have one of my closest friends coming to dr's appt's and ultrasounds w/me and all I can do is send him pictures and say "wish you could've been there." I'm so over that.

Going through a pregnancy basically alone sucks ass. My mom and friends are around but its not the same as having him here. And that's the sucky part, he'll never be only. Only in January for a quick visit and then in april for the birth. So...all of these changes i'm going through, all these emotions i'm dealing with, I'm doing alone. As usual. Sometimes I think i'd be better off just saying "dont worry about it" and going it alone so I wouldnt have outside sh*t to worry about. But I could never do that. I ♥ him and he already ♥ the baby.

I'm sitting here watching Wall-E and crying! Such a loser. But he just seems so happy to be around Eva and it makes me jealous. When she was shut down, he took care of her, he loves Eva.

It's just I was always a little insecure w/our relationship due to stupid sh*t and after a series of Lemony Snickett's style events, i'm even more so now. And when he doesnt answer his phone, texts, etc...that doesnt ever help the situation. Sometimes I just wanna climb into a hole and stay there. But if I continue to worry about him and what he's doing, I will drive myself crazy like i've been doing the past year and a half. And its gotten me on a road nowhere fast.

I cant wait for my little baby to get here. Then i'll have someone that will love me unconditionally forever just because he's supposed to. I know he'll never leave me, cheat on me or do me wrong. I will love him like i've never loved anybody or anything before. I love him already lol..when I see his little movements in my belly I get so excited because I know in 3.5 months, he will be here and I can love on him all I want and he'll never tell me its too much.

♥ ♥ ♥

Finally!

2008-12-08T02:54:00.000-08:00

I'm starting to feel pregnant. lol...and I must admit, I'm not thrilled about it. I will say that feeling the baby kicking is always exciting, not being able to sleep and my back feeling like its gonna break in half is NOT cool. I'm officially 22 wks today and heres a quick snapshot:

It's totally weird to see myself like that! lol..but the 10 lbs i've picked up I'm liking! lol..I've always wanted a little more body/booty meat lets just hope it doesnt get out of control!

The Name Dilemma

2008-12-05T11:03:00.001-08:00

I'm having the hardest time trying to decide wether or not to use my last name or my boyfriends for the baby. I like the way mine flows with the first name but he just wants his to signify WHATEVER!! lol

Its like, if he doesnt have my last name and i'm sure he wont look like me, lol..what did i have to do with the situation other than carry him!? lol. And I'm not too keen on a middle name anyway. What's the point of a middle name? I found this via google search:

:The use of two given names – a first name and a middle name – was essentially unknown in Europe until the late Middle Ages, and even then the practice was limited to a few distinct cultural groups. Middle names among English-speakers were nonexistent until the mid-1600s, remained quite rare for another century or so, and did not become common until well after the American Revolution"

So, in reading that, why does that segway into ME giving baby ninja a middle name??

Mini-Explination.

2008-12-05T02:18:00.000-08:00

A few people might wonder why i call this baby a "ninja." Welllll...it's because he's jump kicking my stomach every 2 seconds. And not only that, I can see it from the outside. Which leads me to believe that the baby is at least the size of a ruler.

WOW. It's very weird. I wish I had a specific time of day when he moves around ( oh if I forgot to mention, it's a boy!) it's more so, ALL DAY long w/maybe 2 hrs when he's "asleep" I'm guessing.

Today I pretty much had my first real pregnancy symptom. I had cramps. And I was slightly scared. I totally called my OBGYN and I think I spoke to the bitch-on-wheels midwife Ms. Jackie or whatever. I cant deal with her. Its like it pains her to do her job. Anyway, she said it just might be that I was dehydrated and needed to drink some water. And it totally did the trick. Thank God because I wasnt interested in getting up early and going to the Dr. just for them to tell me "everythings okay!"

So...

2008-12-05T01:52:00.001-08:00

Whoever said pregnancy is the "best time of ur life" is the biggest liar ever!!!! lol...granted, it does have its high points, i.e. BOOBS....that's about it.

Well for me anyway.

I have acne like i'm 14, I cant sleep, my skin looks like a flipping fish ( scaly for you slow people) and people keep touching me like I invited them to.

DONT TOUCH ME!! DO I EVEN KNOW AND OR LIKE YOU!?

Either way, I guess I should be honored that something like this has been bestowed on me. And I am. HOWEVER..lol...is it April yet!?