6.5 wks...

My sweet pea is almost 7 weeks old. WOW. 

He's getting bigger everyday. He's smiling at me. He looks for me when I call him. I NEVER WOULDVE thought i'd turn into a mom and damnit, i'm a mom. I LOVE IT! I love going to work and coming home to him. I miss him when I'm gone. I miss him when i'm around. I'm so in love yall. Who knew last year this time that a year later, I'd have a mini me. Well...not ME per say but u get it. 

Hes already quite the character. He makes the FUNNIEST FACES!! 

Love Love Love

If I've never loved anything before, I love this little person!!! I know I'm spoiling him but I like to let him sleep on me. All the time! LOL I love looking at him..smelling him...touching him...everything! Crazy.


-- Post From My iPhone

Scary monster face!! My baby is a clown already!!


And when he's not looking at me like that, he's like this


And when he's not like that, he's like this


Or this


LOL!! Silly billy!

Public Service Announcement.

Just so everybody is FULLY aware, I tried breast feeding and it's TOTALLY not for me. I'm scared to go to sleep because i can only lay down for 2 hrs before they are all swollen and stupid! I love having the SIZE but the pain isnt a good enough trade off. So guess what...I PASS! Ayden has a dr. appt tomorrow and I will be asking her what formula is closest to breastmilk and i'll be switching over TOMORROW. I cant deal...I'm sure he'll understand. lol ..if not..he cant beat me! 

Postpartum.

Its been a week since I've had Ayden and I must say, I slightly miss him being inside. SLIGHTLY. lol 

I'm not sure if its the post baby blues but my mind has been all over the place. Either i'm thinking about how much its gonna hurt when I wake up because of my HUGE boobs swelling up, or wether its how much I wanna take him outside but i'm scared of germs (lol) or about us moving to California. I'm just so unsure about everything now because I just dont know. Like honestly. 

Im so tired every day but I just dont even worry about it because when he wimpers, I jump. I can hardly sleep well unless he's w/my mom. Cuz I know she's attentive and doing what she knows to do to soothe him and calm him down. 

I dont know man. I just have alot on my mind and when the baby came, everything seemed to change for me. EVERYTHING. 

Motherhood so far..

isnt what I thought it would be. lol...It's hard yes, its very tiring yes, but its all worth it. To see his little round face, wrinkly skin and to hear his little whimpers makes me feel like a completely new person. Who ever thought that I would be a mom. lol..most people could never see it. And now that I am, I ♥ it. I really do. 

I dont wanna let anybody do anything, I wanna do it all but I'm the one who ends up exhausted and all crabby patty the next morning, because not ONLY is he a baby ninja, he seems to be part hoot owl. MEANING he sleeps all day and is wide eyed all night. THANKS. I blame my work schedule. Because I did keep those kinds of hours. Oh well...c'est la vie! Isnt that how its spelled?? 

Well we've been to the Dr. already, Dr. Walker. She's great! I have some pics: 

first day in the real world, etc...it went well. I can see that the car is his friend. 

All I do is take pictures of him, why, because he's cute and hes mine!! heres my most recent fav...

CLASSIC CANDRA EXPRESSION!!! 

DUH DUH DUH DUH!!!!

woke up @ 11am - felt funny

counted contractions until like 1pm, took a bath, got out, got dresses, headed to my dr appt. Got there, he checked me and was like, ur only 1cm..go home. I told him NO. lol..so me and my mom rode around for an hour and seriously they were coming like every 2 or 3 min...so we rode back to the dr ( which is right across from the the hospital) and I sat in the parking lot for 20 min..I saw the dr come out and I told him, I'm going to the hospital...he said COOL. lmao..

i get here, cant find a park..OMG! Rode in the deck for like 10 min..then i say, EFF IT..we parked direclty in front of the door and put on the hazards. Got wheeled upstairs to triage, the left me in there for like 6 months, then when I got checked, I was 4cm. I stayed there for like 15 more min then went to my l&d room. HELLA BIG by the way!!

After about 15 more minutes or 20, i dont really recall, lol...the epidural was wheeled in, NOT BEFORE my boss, brother, cousin, best friend, brothers roomate and friend came in to watch me contract my LIFE away. I got checked before my epidural and I was 7 1/2..WOW.

I got the epidural and still felt hella contractions, so after an hour of feeling them, I ended up having to get another dose. After 10 min, which is approx 7:25pm by now, I was fully dialated and ready to push. I started pushing at like 7:45 or so..he was out and crying at 8:11pm.
A total of 9hrs in labor! I was really surprised AND i didnt tear and or shat on the table! YES!!!!
He latched on right away! He's cute! I love him!

and yes i'm so glad I got those maternity pics taken yesterday..I would've been pissed and if ya'll EVER need a bomb photographer, a fellow banana member cghetes took my pics and did a WONDERFUL job!!

Oh, heres the baby..lol:

www.photobucket.com/aydenhenderson