Moving Right Along

Well, I've finally hit that 25 week mark. 15 weeks left and counting.

And these days WONT come fast enough. He's been moving around alot more recently and I guess I've figured out his sleep/activity pattern. Like his parents, he's a night owl. lol...his most active times are like after 3am and until like 12pm...after that, he's relatively still. I've still been hella sleepy but that's to be expected I guess. No other symptoms. YAY me! lol Here's some updated pics from this week:

Project.

Since I learned to crochet back in 8th grade, I've been trying to find a real reason to actually start and finish a quilt. I guess me having a baby is as good a time as any. After 2 days of starting, unraveling, starting, unraveling, I finally got it started the RIGHT way and its coming along GREAT! ( if i must toot my own horn) Now the problem I have is the flippin yarn I chose ( merino wool) tends not to want to un-ravel the way I want/need! And THAT pisses me off, Hence the reason my quilt is only this big:

I still have 3.5 months to finish...I"m sure I will, if not, he'll understand! lol

UPDATE!!

So, I had my 24 wk checkup today and my 2nd ultrasound! It was funny. When the nurse was trying to use the doppler to hear his heartbeat, he kept moving around. lol..then after waiting for 45 minutes I got into the ultrasound room. I tried to take my camera and make a video for my BF but, no haps on that! BOOOO! Ultrasound showed that he was growing cool, he weighed 1.5lbs and had a little chubby face already. We saw him yawning and for the 2ND time, he flipped us the bird! lol..thanks little buddy. 'preciate that =)
They did my fundal height and said i was like 26. Whatever that means and after doing research online, that means i'm measuring 2 wks ahead THEREFORE stating I might be having a big baby. lol..greattttt. So, since I havent scanned any pics yet, i took some pics w/my cell to send to my BF here they are:

His Feet

His face from the top
Him flicking us off.
his new big boy profile

How fun!!! Now I cant wait until the end of January when I get my 3D ultrasound and BF will be here to FINALLY see one live in action! And on the 22nd I have my dreaded glucose test! No food after 12am the night before..great. How am I supposed to deal with that?! Oh well.

Retraction

So...I think I should probably issue a statement of apology. I have painted my BF to be something he TOTALLY is not. I've made him out to be a selfish, immature, jerk off and in all honesty he's NONE of that. Although he doesnt think sometimes lol, he's still the greatest boyfriend i've ever had. Real talk.



I know that's weird to say, but I've had ALOT of boyfriends and by far, he's the bestest. Im sure that if he was here in NC w/me, he would clearly have an active role in this pregnancy because he is genuinely interested, excited and happy about our baby. So..if I tend to veer off the beaten path sometime, let's blame it on the hormones..no hard feelings. I ♥ you.

ON ANOTHER NOTE...

I finally took out my belly ring for the first time in 6 years. It was a sad moment but I dont want a hideous scar. I tried to put in the "pregnancy jewelery" but it just didnt do anything for me. So...I figure i'll be 28 when the baby comes...I just might not need it anymore. Especially if the dreaded stretch marks appear on my stomach...YIKES!!!

P.S. I'm at 24 wks officially on monday. Here's my update..lol, excuse the bra showing, it IS 6:48am lol

Here we go again.

Today is one of those days.

I think i'm catching a cold! And that really blows because I can't really take too much of anything! My job is having an xmas party on sunday AND I wont be able to drink ANYTHING! AARGH...lol..I refuse to partake in the one/two glass per month allocation. I'm not sure why, I've read so many things about drinking but I just dont wanna risk it I guess. But drinking aside, the green monster of jealousy cant seem to get out of my head. They always say that your boyfriend/dude always is the person who gets the bad end of the stick. But, it seems like mine doesnt care that he's getting it (or if he does, i sure dont know it). I try to be as nice as I can ( very hard for me, lol) and not be naggy about stuff that bothers me and it just blows me up inside. It's like I wonder if I should NOT deal w/him till after I have the baby. Would that help me not go insane? I dont know dude. I"m just so tired of always wondering, "what if?" And I cant keep doing that because I am literally going insane over here. This long distance thing is really taking its toll on me right now.

These days..

Yes. I admit it. I'm a hater. And I dont care.

Being preggo brings out the WORST thoughts in my head. I'm so over it. Im one minute away from saying eff it all and disconnecting myself from any and every situation I DONT feel is beneficial to me.

I'm kinda tired of being 2nd place or just in the "fake" 1st place spot. I'm sick of everything. And w/the exception of a few, EVERYBODY. I'm gonna hope and pray its just the hormones because if not...I have a LONG road ahead of me.

And facebook is pissin me off too. lol..I just might get offa there AGAIN, for good this time. Like I was told by someone "facebook isnt real...you always take everything out of context....blah blah" YEAH WELL FU*K THAT!! lol..I aint the one. And I'm tired of it. BUT...as always....i'm the one who's trippin and needs to "calm down."

I guess dude.

Collage!

I was bored and decided to make a baby glitter thingy collage! hehe...

Baby Fest '09

Apparently it must be something in the water. I've had SEVERAL friends tell me that theyre are preggo now. Like either 2 weeks ahead of me or behind AND even one of them is due on the same date! Its sooo weird. lol..its like, if you graduated from high school in '99, you should be pregnant right now! lol..

P.P.P.

My BF is going to a wine party and i'm so jealous. NOT ONLY am I jealous because he can drink but I'm jealous because he has all these friends that invite him to places, etc...and he calls me and tells me how drunk he is and how much fun he had. Thanks. I appreciate that. As I lay in my bed, fat, alone and bored SENSELESS, he's out having the time of his life in Newport Beach. But i'm the one that's "being mean." I'm sure he's gonna be too far gone to drive home LEAVING him to stay in Newport overnight w/people I dont know. Yeah I'm jealous and posessive. But...it's warranted.

I dont get invited anywhere anymore. Because me and my friends laugh at preggo's in the party. So I'm guessing that's why I dont get the invite...I dont know. The Preggo Party Pooper.

Boredom.

I felt like I needed a change. Since my body is changing, my hair should too. So instead of cutting my hair ( which I've been forbidden to do) I bought a wig. And I think I'm gonna keep buying them BECAUSE they are cute to me!! lol Aint nothin like looking different. What do ya'll think?



yay or nay? lol

Caught on film!!

I finally got video of him moving around alot! Just to prove I'm not crazy. You can really see it from the outside!!

Some Days.

Some days I feel so alone. And it seems like my BF never really understands where I'm coming from. I'm sure its the hormones but I just feel like i'm doing this whole thing by myself. I have one of my closest friends coming to dr's appt's and ultrasounds w/me and all I can do is send him pictures and say "wish you could've been there." I'm so over that.

Going through a pregnancy basically alone sucks ass. My mom and friends are around but its not the same as having him here. And that's the sucky part, he'll never be only. Only in January for a quick visit and then in april for the birth. So...all of these changes i'm going through, all these emotions i'm dealing with, I'm doing alone. As usual. Sometimes I think i'd be better off just saying "dont worry about it" and going it alone so I wouldnt have outside sh*t to worry about. But I could never do that. I ♥ him and he already ♥ the baby.

I'm sitting here watching Wall-E and crying! Such a loser. But he just seems so happy to be around Eva and it makes me jealous. When she was shut down, he took care of her, he loves Eva.

It's just I was always a little insecure w/our relationship due to stupid sh*t and after a series of Lemony Snickett's style events, i'm even more so now. And when he doesnt answer his phone, texts, etc...that doesnt ever help the situation. Sometimes I just wanna climb into a hole and stay there. But if I continue to worry about him and what he's doing, I will drive myself crazy like i've been doing the past year and a half. And its gotten me on a road nowhere fast.

I cant wait for my little baby to get here. Then i'll have someone that will love me unconditionally forever just because he's supposed to. I know he'll never leave me, cheat on me or do me wrong. I will love him like i've never loved anybody or anything before. I love him already lol..when I see his little movements in my belly I get so excited because I know in 3.5 months, he will be here and I can love on him all I want and he'll never tell me its too much.


♥ ♥ ♥

Finally!

I'm starting to feel pregnant. lol...and I must admit, I'm not thrilled about it. I will say that feeling the baby kicking is always exciting, not being able to sleep and my back feeling like its gonna break in half is NOT cool. I'm officially 22 wks today and heres a quick snapshot:

It's totally weird to see myself like that! lol..but the 10 lbs i've picked up I'm liking! lol..I've always wanted a little more body/booty meat lets just hope it doesnt get out of control!

The Name Dilemma

I'm having the hardest time trying to decide wether or not to use my last name or my boyfriends for the baby. I like the way mine flows with the first name but he just wants his to signify WHATEVER!! lol

Its like, if he doesnt have my last name and i'm sure he wont look like me, lol..what did i have to do with the situation other than carry him!? lol. And I'm not too keen on a middle name anyway. What's the point of a middle name? I found this via google search:

:The use of two given names – a first name and a middle name – was essentially unknown in Europe until the late Middle Ages, and even then the practice was limited to a few distinct cultural groups. Middle names among English-speakers were nonexistent until the mid-1600s, remained quite rare for another century or so, and did not become common until well after the American Revolution"

So, in reading that, why does that segway into ME giving baby ninja a middle name??

Mini-Explination.

A few people might wonder why i call this baby a "ninja." Welllll...it's because he's jump kicking my stomach every 2 seconds. And not only that, I can see it from the outside. Which leads me to believe that the baby is at least the size of a ruler.

WOW. It's very weird. I wish I had a specific time of day when he moves around ( oh if I forgot to mention, it's a boy!) it's more so, ALL DAY long w/maybe 2 hrs when he's "asleep" I'm guessing.

Today I pretty much had my first real pregnancy symptom. I had cramps. And I was slightly scared. I totally called my OBGYN and I think I spoke to the bitch-on-wheels midwife Ms. Jackie or whatever. I cant deal with her. Its like it pains her to do her job. Anyway, she said it just might be that I was dehydrated and needed to drink some water. And it totally did the trick. Thank God because I wasnt interested in getting up early and going to the Dr. just for them to tell me "everythings okay!"

So...

Whoever said pregnancy is the "best time of ur life" is the biggest liar ever!!!! lol...granted, it does have its high points, i.e. BOOBS....that's about it.

Well for me anyway.

I have acne like i'm 14, I cant sleep, my skin looks like a flipping fish ( scaly for you slow people) and people keep touching me like I invited them to.

DONT TOUCH ME!! DO I EVEN KNOW AND OR LIKE YOU!?

Either way, I guess I should be honored that something like this has been bestowed on me. And I am. HOWEVER..lol...is it April yet!?